Archive for September, 2008
Friday, September 19th, 2008
Torrid has Twilight
Twilight is the hottest movie out right now and everyone is just in love with Edward Cullen. Who can blame them, he is just so pretty. Well now you can get yourself some of Edward and have him on your shirt just like all the girls. Grab up some of the hot stuff that Torrid has because they are not lasting in the stores, the stuff is going fast. One of my girlfriends tried to get a t-shirt this afternoon and it was sold out in her size already. This movie is on fire and everyone has Twilight fever. Grab yours now.
Wednesday, September 3rd, 2008
Plus size life: the fun never ceases
Today was just supposed to be a laid back day for me. It amazes me that every time I try to relax and just take time out for myself and cocoon myself up in my bedroom that’s when everything and everyone outside of the home starts going haywire lol. I live in a tiny town and you would think that there can’t be that much activity around one single woman’s home, especially considering that I rarely have guests! I like it that way. There is nobody to bring their drama and it’s almost always peaceful. Last week I was trying to sleep and some kid in the neighborhood knocked on my door at like 10:00am and was asking me if I wanted to buy rocks? Are you joking? Yea kid let me buy a bunch of rocks from you so I can chuck them at your ass while your trying to run your ass home for waking me up lol. God damn it lol! Two hours after that another knock on the door from the highway department asking me to move my car because they had to finish paving the street. UGH fine… did that and went back to sleep. That day sucked majorly.
So this morning I went to bed really late like 6:30am or something and I woke up at 1:30pm. I was up talking to Mike for a little bit and then went to just relax in bed and listen to an audio cd that I have been trying to find the time to hear again. It was an up and down kind of day, but around 8:00pm I hear loud banging at my front door. Scared the bejeebies out of me so I’m like ok who is it? It’s the police. I’m like the police for what? They certainly sounded aggressive so there was no way that I was going to be like yea wait a minute officer so I had to open the door in my nightie. Turns out they were looking for some guy who gave MY physical address as his address. Umm ok, I’ve lived here for six years and you all just gave me a heart attack, thanks bye!! So much for my R&R for today, I’m going to have to sage my house and make all the bad juju go away.
I really want to get some good fiction to read. The last book I bought that was just supposed to be a light fluff read for me was this book called “Such a pretty Fat”. I have to say I’m a bit annoyed with it. The inner monologue that the main character has with herself is constantly about food. But not just about food, it’s about oh just the perfect smidge of this and a touch of that… blahhhhh it felt like I was reading a fat version of Ratatouille. I’ve heard the Twilight books are supposed to be good, I might have to check them out. I would love for Anne Rice to create another series. I loved the Mayfair witches and the Vampires, so sexy and decadent. I used to love Clive Barker books so much as well. I just want a book I can fall in love with. The last time a book pulled me in it was The Davinci Code. I dunno, the right one will come at the right time and then I will be happy.
Anyway, it’s about 3:40am and I’m off to the grocery store for some essentials lol. I love shopping in the middle of the night and have the entire store to myself. Ohhh and another thing, Nadia weighs 15lbs she’s a spoiled kitteh. Gotta figure out how I’m going to get her to lose hmm probably about 3lbs if I can. Ok gotta fly.
Monday, September 1st, 2008
Being BBW and trying to lose weight
Yikes, this is a touchy subject, being a BBW and wanting to lose weight. So many people want to tell you that you are giving into societal pressure blah blah blah. Hmm, I don’t know, how about I would like to experience my life not at 330lbs? It’s always interesting to me when other people tell me what I should do for my own life. If you go against that collective train of thought within a certain community, you are shunned because you don’t agree with the whole. LOL Ok sorry, then I guess I don’t fit in your guys club anymore.
Man I don’t know, I just don’t like the way I physically feel at a particular weight. A few years ago during an occupational mishap lol I somehow slipped a disc out in my back. it never really bothered me much(was more like a tight feeling) until I really beefed up and packed on a bunch of weight that I had lost plus 35 extra pounds. That put me at 335lbs at my top weight. It made it impossible for me to walk more than 100ft without using something to rest on. I started to feel like I was losing a lot of my dignity because every day things were becoming hard. Like breathing, sleeping, getting off of the couch by rolling off being my only option, sex became difficult, swollen ankles and feet every day, sciatica, hygiene and flexibility issues. I don’t know but for me these were deal breakers between me and this extra fat. My quality of life was going downhill and the fatter I got, the quicker it was happening.
I’m 5’2″ and the women in my family are known to have blood clots and hyper tension, this weight puts a strain on this body. I’ve been up and down the scale, my lowest being 190lbs and physical activities were a lot easier. I got fed up with being 330lbs. I’m still fat and am currently at 295lbs and my body is really starting to feel more comfortable. The problems with my swollen ankles and feet have gone away and the exasperated issue with my lower back is practically gone. I can walk again with ease. I’m starting to fit into the clothes that I love once again.
I’ve always been somewhat of a clothes horse and playing with my style. I love clothes and fashion. I decided back in March to go on Alli. It’s really been a good thing for me and I lost 40lbs with relative ease and unless I knowingly eat something that has too much fat I don’t have issues. I have been paying for a gym membership since December and hadn’t been going. Once I got down to 305lbs I started going to the gym three days a week and walking on the treadmill for an hour. On the days that I don’t go to the gym I work out at home for about 45 minutes with a walk at home dvd. I will admit that I have slacked off for about three weeks because of various obligations and other reasons that I shall not go into here but I no longer beat myself up for falling off the wagon. I am still taking my Alli every day and my weight maintains itself. Once I pick up the activity again the weight will start dropping very quickly once again.
I’m not following what society tells me to do. I’m not following what the community tells me to do. Why? Because I feel in all honestly that I don’t agree with either viewpoint. Again… follower or leader? I don’t want to follow anybody else except my inner self and what it tells me to do for my own life and it does not affect anyone else. I say wherever you are at in life be happy. If you are 400, 500, 600lbs and feel good then be happy and stay like that if it makes you happy. If you are 105, 135, 155lbs and you feel good then be happy and stay like that too. If not then do something about it and change it, do NOT let others tell you to stay how you are because ultimately they do not know how you are feeling inside. Only you can know that with 100% positivity. I don’t recommend that anyone who is 105lbs try and get themselves any less than that. I mean more of coming to terms with your body, mentally. I’m 35 and life is not going backwards for anyone that I know of and it’s time to embrace the rest of my life and make it the best that I can and that is why I am doing what I’m doing, it’s only serving me. It’s my life and we only get one of those as well as only one body. Nobody is going to make my life better or worse, I’m the one who is in charge of that ship. I do not want to be a hypocrite just to make money as a BBW and me catering to particular fetishes was hypocritical for me. LOL So there I said it before anyone decides to point the finger at me.
Just remember whichever group does get in your ear, they want their numbers to increase to have more power behind their mission and if you are going to go along with any community make sure it has a mentally healthy mindset about the issues it is backing and promoting.
Things I love right now:
Orange Tictacs
Tootsie Rolls
Grilled chicken Gyros with Tzatziki
It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia
Audio Books
Journaling
Blogging
Web Design
My fluffy kitties
LOLCATZ
Youtube
Method
Clothes, shoes and handbags baby!!!
Monday, September 1st, 2008
Plus Size: New dresses I like
Retro Mod Style Dress
Ooh meow. This is a very nice dress for fall. The style and the pattern really make you look a lot more curvy and I prefer this color over some of the others that are available but hey everyone’s taste is different.
Camilla wrap around dress
The new Camilla wrap around dress has me drooling. I just love the colors and the feminine lettuce leaf ruffle around the neck line which makes this wrap-around stand apart from others. I have to say, I bought the black trench dress last month from Igigi and the clothes fit remarkably well. They are really cut to fit a plus size body. And I’m sure most of us are familiar with poorly cut clothing that is too small for ample hips and curves.
