Just a little while ago I had launched my twhirl account and was looking through my posts on twitter for the day. I saw a tweet about NAAFA giving away a $1000 scholarship for aspiring plus size fashion designers so there was no way that I could ignore that and not post about it. If you don’t know what NAAFA is, it stands for the National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance. I think it is worthwhile to spread the news about something like this for my readers as it is directly related to what we talk about here. So if you are considering a career path in fashion design and are going to be focusing on the plus size side of things, you may want to consider applying for their scholarship award. You can do so at the following site NAAFA Plus Size Fashion Scholarship.
For those of us who have brown eyes, various shade of purples are often used to bring out the most of the brown hue of our irises. I am very fond of doing pink and purple looks and this was a variation of one where instead of using purple on the entire lid and then using pink in the crease, I stuck with concentrating the pretty amethyst color on the outer corner of my eye and swept a very light sparkly pink onto most of my lid. Keeping colors concentrated on the lid is ideal if you have a heavily folded crease, or very little crease as I do. Even still, sometimes I like to wear my makeup a bit higher onto the upper crease as well. There are no do or die rules when it comes to makeup, just enjoy it and have fun!
This is just a video I recorded this morning about my feelings over these things in the media recently. It’s sort of a continuation of my previous post.
All I’ve got to say about this is, how do you figure? I don’t generally write about debated topics like this and I try to just remain positive and focus on making the best of what I’ve got. I have never hidden the fact that I believe that if someone wants to have Gastric Bypass or Lapband or any other sort of procedure that will aid as a tool in them losing weight, they have every right to do so. I support anyone who makes the decision to change their body and health.
I do not support companies that would have you believe that their unregulated by the FDA “drugs” are going to cure your obesity. I am fully aware of the elevated risks of type 2 diabetes developing among fat people. I am not one of the people in the fat community that goes around saying fat is good and fat is where it’s at and skinny bitches are just mad etc… However, I am aware that I am a very large woman with A LOT of adipose tissue on my body. I realize that I am someone with food issues. I am also someone who has done the diet thing, and done the exercise and eating right thing, and the Alli thing, and the Meridia thing. I’ve also done the binge purge thing. Got five teeth missing in the back of my head thanks to the binging and purging I did from the time I was seventeen till about twenty one, twenty two.
Why did I do this? Well because everyone else told me I should lose weight. My entire life I was told I should lose weight. I was put on Weight Watchers at ten years old. I dealt with strangers, and family members telling me I was too fat, calling me names, and verbally and mentally abusing me my entire life. This all from the people who were doing this because they “loved me”. I have faced humiliation, discrimination, and have been physically assaulted because I am fat. So what I want to know at the end of the day is, who and when did anyone decide that anyone else has the right to tell me what to do with my body or to abuse me and discriminate against me because I have too much fat on my body?
I think people who feel that fat people should be taxed are out of their damn minds. I watched Bill Maher last week and I like him a lot, however I was sorely disappointed at him and everyone on his panel all making fat jokes and agreeing that we should be fined and should be humiliated on a flight if someone else deems us as too big to sit in a seat without having to buy an extra seat. I really wonder if the government were to tell Wanda Sykes she was going to be double fined for being African-American and gay if she would be behind being taxed based on your genetic make up? And just to set something straight here, I have nothing against race or sexual orientation. I’m using it to illustrate a point. Discrimination is not ok in this country UNLESS the person is FAT.
For the record to all the people who feel they are the authority on fat people and how we are costing them billions of dollars, that they carry the burden of the cost of what our weight does to increase health-care costs. Oh I’m sorry, I missed the part where people were having their taxes raised because I ate a doughnut this year. Are you fucking kidding me? Fact is, nobody knows where their tax money goes, it’s all bullshit propaganda that people who are openly discriminant against fat people use to try and argue their point. I have not had the need to go to a doctor in eight and a half years, only recently having to go to the E.R. and a couple of physicians for severe allergic outbreaks of chronic hives. Still, it’s not a fat related disease. Prior to that, I really didn’t need to go to a doctor for any fat related illness, I only went for routine visits because I actually had coverage when I was employed full-time outside of my home. Every since I have become self-employed my choices are be denied health-care insurance by most of the major insurance companies OR, pay upwards to $500-$600 per month to get put into a high risk pool. So I don’t want to hear shit about I cost anyone anything because of my weight. I am the only person who is burdened by the excess poundage I carry and everyone else can mind their own business about what I do with my life.
What I have finally come to the conclusion about the abuse we get from society is because of our own self-loathing that we abuse ourselves with internally everyday that we bombard ourselves with. Telling ourselves that we are less deserving of many of the things that “regular” society feels they are only privileged to have. Once the self-abuse stops, then the rest will stop on the outside. Until then, why don’t people start fighting to have corporations and lobbies stopped and heavily fined? Why don’t people fight against companies who make things that kill us, like cigarettes, or genetically altered crops, or cloned beef, or corn-syrup laden processed foods that corps pay millions of dollars a year to brainwash our kids and us into wanting? How come the government taxed the smokers but not the criminals making the product to begin with? Why, because of lobbies and money. Why hasn’t the $85 billion dollar diet industry helped with the so called “burden” that fat people have created? They can’t because they are too busy lining their own pockets off of the people who hate themselves enough to buy the shit they sell.
Be beautiful, accept yourself, LOVE YOURSELF! Most importantly, tell everyone else to fuck off and mind their own damn business.
I just realized that I haven’t really posted very much here since before Christmas. If anyone has read my blog for a while but not followed me on youtube, the reason I guess this was so, was because I was having really bad allergic reaction to something. Enormous hives which I am still having but they are more under control now. I was also experiencing a direct allergic reaction to some make up remover wipes that I was using to remove my eye makeup and resulted in huge swollen puffy eyes for days. So now that I’ve started feeling better and feel good enough to post some pictures and videos I thought I would add all of the videos of stuff that I’ve done since that time.
I did a Christmas haul, and a couple of hauls since then. I did a video talking about my experience with Calypso Minerals and how they just kind of ripped a lot of people off. She caused a major ripple of anger through youtube and beauty communities because she just disappeared with a lot of people’s money. In that video I have pictures of a Lisa Frank inspired eye look that I did from one of the gurus that I’m subscribed to on youtube.
Finally I have some pictures that I am adding of a makeup mask look that I did the other day for Mardi Gras. I have been meaning to push myself outside my comfort zone for some time and this is the look that I came up with. I would have liked to try a Venetian Mask but I felt that was a little too intricate for my skill level so I started simple first. I was pleased with the results for my first time trying my hand at creating a mask with all makeup. I used to be able to draw but that takes a lot of practice and guidance for me (I learned to draw from an instructional book). So as a result shapes and such were not exactly even and there were some mistakes that I just could not remove because I had used paint pot on my face for the base of the makeup. Anyway, enjoy!
Christmas Haul
Part 2
Calypso Mineral’s Bad Business Practices & Lisa Frank Inspired eyes
